
Before I Go To Sleep by S.J. Watson
Trust Me. I’m a good man. “Do not trust Ben.” Or anyone by that name.
It would be all too easy to associate this novel with a movie that came out back in 2000, but I’m not going to do that. I’m pretty sure the review itself will reveal what movie I’m speaking of and if you’re unaware of it, then it’s your loss. In fact, this movie and this book really aren’t all that similar yet they share a common thread. I may have jumped the gun assuming the two would end up the same way, and for that I apologize.
Mr. Watson has written a riveting and engaging mystery/thriller novel that really stumped me from the get go. At first I was unsure if this was this really something I could get into; would the story and the characters be enough to get me to finish this book at the rate at which I have been reading (not that that really matters). In the end, it was, it was more than enough. This story is pretty f’ing badass.
I had to do a little research on Mr. Watson after finishing the book to see where he came up with the idea to write such a beautiful and telling story. Apparently, he is a British audiologist who was and maybe still is working with deaf children. He, like me, has in his time, started writing many, many different stories until “Before I Go To Sleep” fell into place and found the right publisher. Needless to say, it has sold well and has already been “optioned” for a film to be directed by Ridley Scott. Oddly enough, the book has little to do with his work in audiology, instead it centers around memory, memory loss and the individual identity.
I’m not going to pretend like I foresaw how the book would end, but it is pretty obvious and I think I realized it about halfway through. Don’t worry, I’m not going to spoil anything for you. The book is about a woman named Christine Lucas who after an accident has no memory. She wakes up every morning not knowing where she is, or who the man beside her in bed is. She wakes up thinking that she is in her twenties when in fact she is in her forties, her memories erased.
“I am an adult, but a damaged one,” is how Christine describes herself in her warped world of waking up to the unknown each day. She believes that “today is all I have,” once the man she wakes up with explains they are married to one another and that she suffers from amnesia. This all changes when she meets Dr. Nash, who encourages her to write a journal, which she can read to help her remember what has happened the days or weeks prior.
The book flows wonderfully and after getting through the first half, really keeps you on the edge of your seat. By keeping and writing in her journal, which Christine only remembers about each day when Dr. Nash calls to tell her where it is and what it is, she slowly puts the puzzle pieces together. Hell, it almost has me convinced that I should be keeping a journal, that said though, I treat this blog as a journal (minus the one year gap when it was dormant).
Without a doubt this book made me think about a lot things. I asked myself what life would be life if you had amnesia to the more mundane of what would I do if I got so drunk one night and woke up next to someone I didn’t know. I have no answers for either of these questions and with any luck, I’ll never know what either feels like. I’m kind of at a point in my life right now where I wish I could forget about the past three years of my life, I know that’s a harsh thing to say, but with what I’ve been dealing with these past couple of months, Lucas’ problem doesn’t seem like such a bad thing (even though I know, in my dark heart, that it is and I would never want to forget the years that have passed me by).
Read this one before it becomes a movie, it’s worth it.












